I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

Saturday, September 29, 2007

//[15 / 09 / 07]\\

Second day in the army, had trouble sleeping the night before due to sleeping patterns before enlistment. the ppl in my bunk seem friendly but its still too early to tell. the food here is edible for me but i dunno why my frens keep fussing about it. im sure its quite a task to cater to so many recruits. so far all we've done is admin stuff and not much of physical trianing(PT) yet. the worst is yet to come i fear.

The welfare and facilities here in tekong have improved tremendously. Bad news is , i've been posted to the most xiong company here in tekong , which is none other than NINJA! i really hope to become a better man and be more disciplined in life in this company.

All this i do jus for 1 objective , to win nana's heart again. tho she doesnt say it much but i noe she wans me to be a better person in life. shes really a very nice girl , i cant give her up , not now not ever. as i lay in bed and watched others talking on the phone , i couldnt help but yearn for her. i miss her my beloved , nana.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|8:33 PM|

//[14 / 09 / 07]\\

Today is enlistment day for me. it couldnt have been more coincidental. just last night i gave banana her bday present in advance. banana's the love of my life. ive never felt so strongly for anyone before. anyway i hope she liked the present which i put so much effort in. i doubt she realises that fact though. i just wan her to be happy with wad i did for her and i'll be happy too.

As i sat in the ferry across to tekong , mixed feelings engulfed me. i wanted to slim down and be fit yet i didnt wanna be away from banana. in fact , she feels the direct opposite. she is avoiding me as much as she can and i was very sad to hear her say that out last night. i jus hope she gets along fine with her life and be happy.

Even tho she doesnt know it , she will always be my motivation in life as well as in the army , thru the words and encouragement she gave me before. i miss her my beloved , nana.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|8:12 PM|

//[hello]\\

hey guys , i'll be re-using this blog again. i'll be posting about my life from now in the army as well as out of the army. i won't be mentioning abt army programs but rather my feelings inside the army during the programs.

please continue to visit this blog dear friends. and tag along if u wish. i'll be updating once a week each time i bookout.

cheers.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|7:43 PM|

Monday, March 27, 2006

//[]\\

One day a fisherman was lying on a beautiful beach, with his fishing pole propped up in the sand and his solitary line cast out into the sparkling blue surf. He was enjoying the warmth of the afternoon sun and the prospect of catching a fish.

About that time, a businessman came walking down the beach, trying to relieve some of the stress of his workday. He noticed the fisherman sitting on the beach and decided to find out why this fisherman was fishing instead of working harder to make a living for himself and his family. "You aren't going to catch many fish that way," said the businessman to the fisherman. "You should be working rather than lying on the beach!"

The fisherman looked up at the businessman, smiled and replied, "And what will my reward be?" "Well, you can get bigger nets and catch more fish!" was the businessman's answer. "And then what will my reward be?" asked the fisherman, still smiling. The businessman replied, "You will make money and you'll be able to buy a boat, which will then result in larger catches of fish!" "And then what will my reward be?" asked the fisherman again. The businessman was beginning to get a little irritated with the fisherman's questions. "You can buy a bigger boat, and hire some people to work for you!" he said.

"And then what will my reward be?" repeated the fisherman. The businessman was getting angry. "Don't you understand? You can build up a fleet of fishing boats, sail all over the world, and let all your employees catch fish for you!" Once again the fisherman asked, "And then what will my reward be?" The businessman was red with rage and shouted at the fisherman, "Don't you understand that you can become so rich that you will never have to work for your living again! You can spend all the rest of your days sitting on this beach, looking at the sunset. You won't have a care in the world!"

The fisherman, still smiling, looked up and said, "And what do you think I'm doing right now?"

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|11:15 PM|

//[zxac?]\\

Learn to write in the sand

A story tells that two friends were walking through the desert.
In a specific point of the journey, they had an argument, and one friend
slapped the other one in the face.

The one, who got slapped, was hurt, but without anything to say, he wrote
in the sand: "TODAY, MY BEST FRIEND SLAPPED ME IN THE FACE".

They kept on walking, until they found an oasis, where they decided to take
a bath. The one who got slapped and hurt started drowning, and the other
friend saved him.

When he recovered from the fright, he wrote on a stone:"TODAY MY BEST FRIEND SAVED MY LIFE".

The friend who saved and slapped his best friend, asked him, "Why, after I
hurt you, you wrote in the sand, and now you write on a stone?"

The other friend, smiling, replied: "When a friend hurts us, we should
write it down in the sand, where the winds of forgiveness get in charge of
erasing it away, and when something great happens, we should engrave it in
the stone of the memory of the heart, where no wind can erase it"

Learn to write in the sand.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|10:44 PM|

Wednesday, March 22, 2006

//[!]\\

It's over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

And where are you now,
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow
Wherever you go
I'll cry me a river
That leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know that there'll be nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Don't you know that there'll be nobody left in this world
To kiss goodnight
Goodnight, goodnight

I'm there at your side,
I'm part of all the things you are
But you've got a part of someone else
You've got to find your shining star

And where are you now,
Now that I need you?
Tears on my pillow
Wherever you go
I'll cry me a river
That leads to your ocean
You never see me fall apart

In the words of a broken heart
It's just emotions taking me over
Tied up in sorrow, lost in my soul
But if you don't come back
Come home to me, darling
Don't you know that there'll be nobody left in this world
To hold me tight
Don't you know that there'll be nobody left in this world
To kiss goodnight

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|3:58 PM|

Monday, March 20, 2006

//[whatever~]\\

the word "whatever" is a household word by now . all of u may have heard it from the show "i not stupid 2". so what exactly is the meaning of this word and in which circumstances should it be used in? this is my topic of discussion for today.

the word "whatever" is used by many ppl. it gets very irritating when used in excess. and it gets on my nerves how ppl can use this word and think that they are so damn cool just becuz they said it. hahaha, cant take it anymore. actually in the past , only those angmohpai girls use it , they go something like " oh , i'm like whatever cans." then now even the ahlians are using the word , they sound something like this "aiya whatever lah".

hahaha i never thought i'll be seeing this day whereby the ahlians and angmohpai girls agree on something. lolol.

so actually in my opinion , the word " whatever " is used only when the user has nothing better or nothing else to say anymore and uses the word. same goes for the word " lol ". sometimes when i use the word "lol" it doesnt really mean that im laughing out loud , its jus that i haf nothing better to answer u or say. hahaha. oops.

but who cares and who bothers? and the word "whatever" is a very offensive and rude word. becuz if u use the word u mus sound like ur very annoyed or very bored with something or someone. u cant use it in a very excited tone or an anxious tone becuz it will jus sound NOT right. jus try doing that now and u will noe wat i mean. lol.

some people even say the word so naturally and so very very boredly becuz its their natural flair. they can jus say the word with ease and look like they are trained proffesionals to only say this word. haha serious! i have seen some girls going like " argh whatever" and they make their face look screwed up to the max and they really can inject the sian and irritated feeling into u even if ur very happy. lolol.

so in conclusion , whats the morale of the discussion? that is to train saying the word whatever until u can piss and annoy everyone around u :) OH IM LIKE WHATEVER CANS!

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|3:13 AM|

Tuesday, February 14, 2006

//[happy valentine's day]\\

its a happy valentine's day alright. im like real happy staying at home alone with nothing to do at all and im so damn pissed becuz im so bored and i have no programs and my arm is killing me.

initially i was thinking of going to town and look at the people and the world go by , but after that i tot that it was a dumb idea. so i decided to stay at home and watch the birds go by instead. and maybe later on i may be going to the reservoir or something to reflect on my life and who am i deep inside.

actually that day i was thinking to myself , why some girls so chio then their bf not very handsome , at least not up to their standards, or vice versa.

THEN I HAD A VERY GOOD LOGIC TOT UP!!

chio girls pair up with ugly guys , and vice versa. the reason that they can last is that : if the chio girl goes out to flirt , the ugly guy wun dare to do anything becuz he is already lucky enuff to haf a chio gf so he wun care as long as she stays with him , and same goes for the handsome guy with the ugly girl concept.

then theres the other kind , whereby the girl and the guy are both very good looking. this pair will surely break up very fast becuz both of them will go out and flirt with other ppl. and they will end up quarrelling and breaking up. hahaha

and theres the last pair. where both parties are not good looking. this pair will surely last very very long. becuz NOBODY WANS TO FLIRT WITH THEM. hahaha.

i jus tot of this logic becuz im too damn bored at home , and i think that if i really haf a gf, valentine's day would be everyday for us , instead of jus one day a year =(

hahaha. happy valentine's day!

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|4:24 PM|

Monday, February 13, 2006

//[i love the way u brush ur hair]\\

wake boarding was fun , managed to do some stunts like cutting in and out , not perfect yet but will be next week. and gonna try to jump nxt week. hehehe

sat nite , went clubbing. the place was super super packed to the max , like sardines. we managed to get into the club wifout being checked and the tix onli cost like 15 bucks when it was actually 25. hahaha it pays to have connections.

so me and ian was dancing wif aching bodies but alright lah it was fun. jared kenneth and berlinda were with us also. the music was great but we didnt really have much fun as the drinks suck man , there was no proper bar becuz the place was like a warehouse club. hahaha. and the bouncers also like heck care type.

so me and ian decided to go outside and chill as it was very packed inside. quite sian of dancing in a packed crowd. once outside we sat at a wall at one corner. and we decided to wave and say hi to each girl that walked past.

he made me go first , haha then i waved at the first girl , she quite chio sia . then i said hi . she suddenly stopped in her tracks and looked at me and ian , quite shocked hahaha. then she walked away wifout saying hi wtf!!

then ian laughed like hell and he say he dun wanna do already. so i damn pissed la then he decided to play along. then he waved and said hi to the next girl. then she also gave the same reaction. but after that she didnt walk away , she stood infront of us and started to act chio and tot that we really wanted to know her. in fact she was fat and ugly hahaha. then me and ian started laughing.

in other countries like those angmoh countries , the girls are more open and frenly there. they say hi to u even wifout u initiating. singapore sux , all the girls so unfrenly . zzzzz

moral of the story : most singaporeans are arrogant , unfrenly , kiasu and kiasi =)

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|11:13 AM|

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

//[sianz]\\

today went for a job interview together with danny . ban intro one lah zzzz.

the job was really attractive , being able to earn lots of commission and stuff. and its a multi-level marketing kind of work. which other ppl might term as pyramid business.

but this job requires no amount of money from us so its not considered pyramid anymore. and this job helps us learn skills regarding sales marketing and customer relations.

so jus now went home , told my parents about it. and my father said " this kind of work, government going to catch all of u , bluff ppl's money."
yah like as if he noes wat im doing about , he jus hears the word MLM, and he jumps to conclusions, parents are like that.

and my mother said that all the products we sell are bullshit , if they are bullshit will they be certified. HAHAHA they are bullshit.

anyway went to town after the interview which was around like 5 plus already. met up with rosie then we slacked and talked cock at pacific plaza .

actually my main motive of going there was to look at the stussy girl hahaha and wanna get her number sia, but shy leh! then rosie wanted to help me to get her number but then she wasnt in the shop, guess NOT FATED lah.

every girl also not fated , arbo i find boyfren SUA! hahahaha

going to slp now , got class tmr morning 11.30am ( its for the work ). NITES!

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|1:02 AM|