I've made mistakes, I'm just a man

Wednesday, November 30, 2005

//[working is fun!!]\\

hi guys, due to popular demand, im back to post more! hahaha jk. benny mus love visiting my blog becuz he has been pestering me to post more and more! -_-"! dun u have anything better to do than to irritate me? hahaha sorry =p

anyway started work on friday at mount faber, altivo bar. to sum up everything in short, working there is fun and it has opened my eyes to the society. made me realise more values in life as well. the people there are generally frenly on the surface but i dunno about the inside haha. maybe im over cautious but i dun like to think that ppl are genuinely good without having a motive or something.

the gals there are cute too, hehehe! but most of them are older than me =( sigh.... there goes my chances haha. when i was working at the altivo bar as a waiter there, i meet all kinds of ppl. mainly the attitude problem people, but some are kind. i remember spilling a tiger beer glass on the table but the customers were more concerned about me being able to handle the tray than themselves getting wet haha!

but the working hours, im not used to it yet, 3pm - 3am . come back home got no strength to do anything haha. damn tired already, like now. anyway im gonna bathe now ciao guys take care!!

andyyy™

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|11:04 PM|

Thursday, November 24, 2005

//[hahaha nv had so much fun for so long!!]\\

man it started as a very dull day lah. erm i went for my last paper (mcq science) frm 2-3pm. after that hmmm met eng in nyp and slacked around in the canteen. had mac for lunch. wat a boring lunch but its ok as long as its cheaper than outside mac haha.

after leaving nyp we went to his house to shower and freshen up b4 going for the interview at mt faber. stupid wolve changed the time to meet him at 8pm instead of 7pm. so we decided to go 1st wifout him becuz we didnt wanna go so late. so we left his house and zzzz it was such a long journey, we reached harbourfront at 8! haha

so we didnt noe how to get there duh. so i called wolve and he told me to go look for the cable car station, we got lost and we saw a sign saying 16th floor = cable car station "wah swee la" so we went in the lift and found the lift onli serviced till lvl 15 !! !!!??? HAHA !!

so we asked the security guard and he showed us the direction to go to to get to the place. it was dark at nite and it was scary and eerie walking thru the garden of death ( LOL ) ! when we reached there we had to xchange our ez link cards for the staff pass that provided us free cable car rides. YEAH!

THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I TOOK A CABLE CAR AND I WAS FREAKING OUT HAHA!! (im damn afraid of heights) LOL !! but the return trip was ok lah cuz i got used to it haha.. the view was fantastic and we both were screaming in the cabin like hell. the guy infront of us who took the cabin earlier slept inside man. i was wondering why he wasnt worried abt his life hahaa =x!

we reached the place and it was damn posh !! man i cant wait to start work on friday ! which is tomorrow haha. anyway the people there are frenly frm wat i can see on my first day there. LOL ! the toilet was GRAND and i mean really GRAND there were mirrors everywhre any1 who is a vainpot will love that toilet man.

after we got interviewed and were assured that job , we left the place haha. they told us to come on friday so shiok so fast get the job. YEAH! haa. damn hungry lor after that. he wanted to go somewhere to eat but it was almost 11 and i scared miss the last train so we went to cheers to eat. i went to get the nestle sundae. DAMN FUNNY LOL ! the icecream was supposed to be compressed out but i compressed it the wrong way and the machine spoilt !! LOL HAHA!! the uncle beside suddenly shout "EH RELAC RELAC TOMBALEH" HAHAHA!!! we both luff like mad.

anyway it was really a funny day lah haha. nv had so much fun for so long. lame jokes we both told each other lol.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|2:14 AM|

Monday, November 21, 2005

//[bowling is good for health!]\\

Just now went bowling game with my relatives. It was great and rejuvenating for me man. Cuz i didnt exercise for a long time and it felt really exhausting for me after the game hahas.

Anyway i played damn sucky today. Played 3 games. 152 , 148 then 175. Except for the last game the other 2 was ok ok only. Haha!!

It was fun lah. Im going interview on tuesday with Eng and Wolve. Hopefully we both can get the job so pray for me ya ? haha.

GOODNITE EVERYONE !!

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|8:00 PM|

//[gosh oh gosh...]\\

This has been a very fun week for me. Finished all of my papers except for 1 more mcq paper on tuesday. Haha. Went to WCG on friday to watch titans play. Wow they were great. Trashed DT as well as Maven.Crew. I tot they were going to be the WCG champs this yr but i was proved wrong yesterday. They were knocked out by EG which had shaguar in their team. Haha. Anyway since titans didnt make it to the finals i didnt go to WCG today. =( NICE TRY TITANS!

Had training yesterday. It was a dumb training to say the least. Jay was late by an hour. Andy didnt bring his gear and he couldnt frag. Man why cant they have more discipline. Sigh. I feel really very demoralised now. We lost to Ragtual 2 maps out of 3, thats bad enuff. Seph and Cat cant frag at all for nuts. I dunno why they slacked so much. Andy couldnt frag becuz he didnt have his gear and he gave an idiotic attitude throughout the training when we pointed out his mistakes. Its like, in nuke, we were terror side and he went to alley all 15 rds and got killed by Matrix 9 rounds. -_-"!? 4v5 most of the time. And Jay's frag at terror side was 0-14 omg!

Anyway i took a pic with FIONA XIE! MY GF ! at WCG and its on the right --- > hahaha! Shes so hot man and her voice is really sweet. Shes not really that tall though, she was wearing super high heels that's why she looks jus around my height. Haha. I even had the chance to talk to her maybe like 2-3 sentences before taking pics. Haha!

Anyway im going to start work soon after my last paper. Will be working at a pub in mt faber. DROP BY IF U ARE FREE! haha. $7 per hr shiok man . 6.45pm - 3am everyday T_T I WUN BE ABLE TO PLAY GAMES NO MORE !! Haha.

GOTTA GO NOW Mum's calling me for dinner =/ /gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|10:45 AM|

Thursday, November 17, 2005

//[ahahhaha]\\

YES !! today was finally the last major paper for meeee. I came home the whole day and played CS,DOTA all the way until now which is 1.50 am the nxt day hahaha!!

I played wif wolve jus now and he intro me a job. High pay sia, $7 per hr at mt faber,dunno wat pub or bar place. But as long as the pay is good i dun care!~!

I'll be going bowling tomorrow with my frens, haven touched my bowling ball for months aint sure if i still got the touch. Anyway, its time for some fun now after my stressing 2 weeks -_-"!

hehehehehehe. Anyway , today is the start of the WCG. Salura sis asked me to go. At first i wanted to go with her, made plans already. But i had to change plans as i have a job interview later on. Haiz! Nvm i will be going on Friday, hopefully u will be there ya SIS!

Im going to stop here and go sleep now. Be back tomorrow with news of the bowling game. HAHAHA im gonna trash them =XXX~ /gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|5:50 PM|

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

//[OH YESH !!!]\\

Tomorrow is finally the last major paper of my o's man, after tomorrow i can totally relax ! Im still thinking on whether or not to work. I called levi's today and they asked me to go for an interview on Thursday at 3pm. I have a paper at 2pm which lasts for an hour. Im gonna be LATE and that will definitely leave a damn good impression on them. [:

Haha. Today is such a great day. I spent the whole day rotting away at home and it was very fruitful because i can feel myself being a total rot. =/ And i oso did some studying lah ( im not totally lazy ) =P

Im gonna die die die, I left my pencil case and calculator in Eng'S bag and he's not gonna be home till 11pm ?? I have to go over and take it later and hopefully i can make the last bus home. If not im gonna die paying for the cab fare and im gonna die for tomorrow's paper if i do not have my lucky pen and calculator with me. HAHA !!

I havent been able to update my blog recently because i dont know wat do write and im getting more and more bored with my life that if i pen it down it will seem worse than it already is.Sad sad sad.

Never mind, im gonna work soon and i bet that will much more exciting than what im experiencing in my daily life. I gotta go mug now,be back soon../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|2:02 PM|

Thursday, November 10, 2005

//[cant wait for the o's to be done]\\

im so bushed. today had 3 papers. english paper 1 and 2 followed by physics ! man wad a day. the paper 1 was ok but i didnt expect SPEECH to come out in section 2. i forgot the damn format but i guess thats ok since they dun really mark jus for the format nowadays. haha.

paper 2 was also quite manageble. passage A was normal but passage B was abit tough. some words were seldom seen but nevertheless it could be done. [:

physics paper was easy to me. probably becuz of all the studying that i had done for the past 3 months on physics alone. i remember when i was back in naval base, mr chai was my physics teacher LOL ! if for every minute that i didnt pay attention i was given 10 cents, i would be a millionaire by now! anyway wads past shouldnt be raked up. unhealthy <--- (yeah rite). haha

sometimes i really miss school very much. didnt cherish the times when i was in school. didnt have much memories. spent most of the time slping in class and didnt really socialise or take part in the events. REGRET !! haha. too bad lah our school didnt have that many pretty chicks so i didnt have the motivation to go to school lah...WAHAHHA!!

enough of that man. back to the topic. yeah i cant wait for the os to be finished, for the 2nd time -_-'!! free man free man!! i wanan work after the o's. still looking for jobs.i wan high paying jobs. can be able to slack and many pretty babes. well i guess i should stop dreaming. hahaha. nidzam asked me to go and work at the japanese restaurant with him. pay is 5.50 per hr. at orchard. hmm? gabriel asked me to go work wif him at factories. 7 per hr but night shift. hmmm? i also promised yejie i will work wif him after my os. die lah i cant make up my mind.

WHY IS MY LIFE ALWAYS FULL OF MAKING DECISIONS!? it is so tough being me. SIGH ?!
i wish somebody is here whenever im filled with decisions to make and gif me a solution to everything. i guess God is the only one able to do so. nobody is able to share my burden but Him.
hahaha...ok guess im going to watch tv now. gotta take a break frm the exam stress for awhile..
i will be BACK soon =DD /gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|2:45 PM|

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

//[how lucky can one get??]\\

hahaha. im so so so thankful to God for helping me for guiding me pass these 2 days. first let me talk about yesterday. well i wasnt able to blog yesterday becuz i had no time to come online in the first place haha. ytd maths paper was rather easy except for some questions. i had difficulty on the measurements and blah blah. after maths i tot wa die liao this is a bad start.

then i called snake, he had also jus finished the paper. so i met him for lunch and i went to his house to study social studes. damn pek chek i didnt even start on a single topic yet. i tot to myself, maybe i shldnt study and waste my time. maybe i shld jus walk in and write watever i know. after all i didnt even study how to pass. and then i remember my tuition teacher said that all of the singapore topics will come out. so i took out my book and study singapore industrialisation. damn long sia some more all of singapore leh. how long man, i onli had 2 1/2 hrs more before the paper started.

then andy told me to jus bang on 1 topic, Venice. i tot ok lah better than nothing. so i spent the nxt 2 hrs chionging Venice. man i didnt noe i had such great memory power. i managed to memorise the whole of Venice in jus 1 1/2 hrs. the rise and the fall of Venice. haha.

then when i got onto the bus after that towards sch. i started praying to God. God pls help me. PLS I BEG U PLS LET VENICE COME OUT. and i kept my book,becuz i had faith in Him.

when i reached the sch i was DAMN nervous. hoping anxiously that Venice would come out. haha. i was late for the exam by 5 mins. when i reached the hall they already started. i took my paper and immediately flip to the back page. VENICE!! I LET OUT A YEAH SOUND AND EVERYONE LOOKED AT ME HAHAHAH!! damn heng...

today was chemistry paper. didnt do much studying last nite. looked thru all the topics briefly. and to my surprise the chem paper was also super easy. this is the 1st time i didnt leave any blank in a chem paper. haha.

anyway i hope the rest of the papers are jus as easy. im gonna do some mugging now. /gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|2:33 PM|

Monday, November 07, 2005

//[lots on my mind..]\\

stressed,thats the only word to describe me now. papers are tomorrow and i dunno if i've prepared enough. already studied since 5pm till now,11pm. hope i can do well in tomorrow's papers so that my morale will be boosted. church today was normal like it usually is. praise worship communion then sermon. nothing fun.

suddenly everything that i wanna write suddenly slipped out of my mind and im feeling really blank right now. came back from church and slept for a couple of hours as i had a late night. hmmm i was up thinking of her all night. i intend to tell her only after my exams but i wonder if that would be too late. anyway if we're meant to be then it will never be too late but if we're not meant to be then i think God has another plan for me[:

i still dunno what to do after my exams. whether to work like mad, exercise like mad, or game like mad at home. aargh im feeling sick in the stomach right now, these few thoughts alone have made me lose hair. <--- LOL !

anyway i guess what i shall do after exams will be left till after my exams to be decided. right now theres nothing on my mind but studying !! i dun wanna regret not studying again. pass it once and for all and move on with life.yup !

haven been able to update my blog for a long time because i have been studying everyday and i guess posting abt what i study would jus be dullsville. yah so it doesnt mean that im not online.its just that im plain lazy to update my blog that's all.

i think imma go back studying right now. she just went offline after i said hi to her LOL ! no mood to stay online further. good nite all and good luck to those taking o's. /gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|3:15 PM|

Friday, November 04, 2005

//[shake it mama shake it, muahahaha]\\

I'm totally NOT studying... this is sooo bad... hahaha im gonna flunk o's again...HOW !! some1 pls force me to studyyyy...!! i really wan to study but i find it so difficult to open up the book....if i manage to open it i wun have any problems la...zzzz

i jus downloaded all of jay's new songs...i like all the slow ballads, the raps arent attractive to me yet becuz it will slowly take awhile after im bored of the other songs...rofl...anyway its really a great album...boreddd lahhhh....i dun really know wat else to write...

this afternoon went to eln's house to slack and irritate him, this life could be tiring...thinking up methods to irritate ppl can be very tedious...becuz it will get very boring somehow...anyway im half asleep writing this post now...so i guess i must be writting rubbish...but i dun care becuz its my blog and i can do watever i wan wif it...buahahaha...

im going mad!! mad!!! how...i cant wait for the os to be over man...im gonna WORK WORK WORK so that i dun have to stay at home and ROT... and i can make money instead of spending money...and i can EXPAND MY SOCIAL CIRCLE AS WELL!!! hahaha...any1 got any good paying jobs to intro pls inform me STRAIGHT AWAY...!!

oh yah...last nite i was talking to sanroye and we both were luffing like mad gays becuz we were saying how nice if we could talk in accents or slang...and i asked him which kind of slangs he came across the most...and he said those gals that talk like that " eh he's like, so cute CANSS" <--- notice the attempt to act angmorish...notice how they make themselves look really retarded...LMAO!! and i was luffing like mad...i disagreed with him..i said the most popular slang is those whereby they speak like this " ehx i dunno worss,u nehz??" man this is the worse of all the slangs out there!! hahaha..anyway it doesnt matter cuz these ppl can gif us a good luff..=/

anyway...can u guys sort of help me out of predicament...i dunno if i should or shouldnt tell her about my feelings towards her...can u guys post in the TAGBOX over on the RIGHT side(incase u dunno) whether i should or not...thanks a BUNCH!! ... im gonna slp now.../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|12:31 AM|

Thursday, November 03, 2005

//[QuoteS??]\\

One day you're going to wake up and realize how much you truly love her, and when that day comes she'll be waking up next to the guy who already knew...

And I say baby, yes I feel stupid to call you, but I'm lonely And I don't think you meant it when you said you couldn't love me And I thought maybe if I kissed the way you do, you'd feel it too

my daddy asked me "why is the water bill so high this month?" and i said, "oh, i don't know." but in the back of my head, it was saying "i ran the shower.. so mommy couldn't hear me crying."

she smashed the rearview mirror with her fist.because starting today, she`s never looking back

if we were running through a forest from anaxe murderer, & you tripped & fell.. i would come back for you..

Why is it that after all the pain you've put me through I still seem to love you? everytime I see you its like meeting you for the first time all over again. Its The butterflies in my stomach, the not knowing what to say, the memories of what we had, and the pain I was left with..you've caused me more heartache then anyone, but why is it that I love you more than the rest...your still the one.... ( one tree hill )

It's not about the perfect setting. It's not about the perfect timing. It's about the perfect person. ~Joey on Dawson's Creek

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|7:03 PM|

//[perceptions...]\\

is reading into a situation that hard?? are there really two sides to a story ... ? i dun really know...haha..is the glass half filled,or half empty ?? its all about ur perception towards situations and matters...solutions can onli be derived on how u wan the situation to be...

i dunno how i wanna look at my problem now...whether to look on it at a brighter side or a darker side.....how...?haha...anw i've heard many opinions on wat i should be doing now...ok i will do wat my heart tells me to do...im not sure when or how its gonna happen...but it's worth a wait...yup...

i haven talked to her for the whole day...probably becuz i dunno wat to say or maybe becuz i wanan try to gif up on her...beats me...anyway i think that i have more important things to do now...like study for my o's and stuff...hahas... tml early morning im gonna go mugging at fren's place...im glad sanroye and peiyao are gonna work becuz that way i wont have any more gaming kakis therefore i can study in peace...ROFL !!

anyway gaming online nowadays are so damn boring and lifeless...the csers online nowadays are so damn pro...like hackers liddat...but who noes...they may be pro ?? haha...dota is oso another thing...they die,they quit,and its gg...either that or u meet up wif maphackers or wif noob teammates who dont stick together...!!?!?!?!?? bored bored bored....

tomorrow is hari raya...guess most of the people will go visit their malay frens...selamat hari raya to those malay peeps out there...have fun alright...=DDhahas...and to u too...have fun tomorrow =D...

well its already 12.30 now at nite...and im damn bushed becuz i haven been having enuff slp for the past 2 nites....but im gonna do a bit of studying first before hitting the sack...good nite guys...pleasant dreams and do slp earli ok?? will be back to update tomorrow!!!..../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|12:35 AM|

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

//[~_~]\\

The world from the rear view mirror becomes further and further away as if saying goodbye
You turn around but your side profile is still very beautiful
I use my eyes to pursue you, yet I hear your tears
Outside the car window is my missed opportunity
Your position and mine is separated by tears
The street views are continuously receding, you start to fragment outside the window
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
You said you were already tired and cannot fall in love with anybody again
The wind is blowing on the mountain road, all of our previous memories were my wrongdoings
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
I head towards the north to leave the season which describes you
Around the steering wheel rotates my feelings of regret
I accelerate to escape the lingering sadness
Counting my shamefulness, I have hurt you too many instances
Stop the anguish by letting my wrongdoings

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|1:36 PM|

//[life is jus SO unfair !!]\\

sigh...i think im jus a COMPLETE SUCKER when it comes to relationship...i cant be as daring as before anymore...not sure why...i guess plainly becuz i've lost the confidence that i once had...haha..even telling a gal i like her is so damn difficult for me...andy ur a complete useless jerk...

anyway i went to town in the afternoon...so damn boring everywhere so crowded but i dun see why there are so many ppl in town...lol bullshit...i went to look at all the tees but i saw none that attracted my attention...i tried 2 stussy tees but they didnt look really good upon wearing...i guess its all becuz of my mood...no mood to do nothing at all...sigh...

i've made up my mind...im gonna jus forget her right here right now...im gonna stop talking to her...becuz i knw that if i tell her abt my feelings it will jus ruin our frenship...so i will jus cherish our frenship and forget abt my selfishness...sorry...

God pls gif me strength to overcome this obstacle...i know that its gonna be painful but i know ur watching and i know that u've heard me...pls guide me and dun give me up...PLS PLS restore my faith lord...i know ur there somewhere...Amen...

i guess im not gonna say much...gonna study now...onli way to take my mind off of her...good nite guys.../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|12:34 AM|

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

//[duhz!!]\\

gooooooooood morning peeps...hmmm had a great breakfast of laksa courtesy of my MOTHER!! hahaha...last nite i slept at around 4plus?? becuz i studied till then...dunno why i wasnt unable to sleep so i decided to hit the books to make myself tired...but i managed to finish 2 yrs of science paper...2001 and 2002...gosh im amazed at myself even...rofl...and so i slept after that and woke up at 9?? thats 5 hrs...4 plus in fact...i have dark rings!!

haha anyway im now at my mom's office...duno why she wants to come even...to clear up some work i guess...she says other countries dun have a holiday like we do...man that sucks!! hahaa....imagine the indians in other countries...how would they feel man?? discriminated...lol...anw im gonna go shopping later wif her...can buy new tees man...shiok shiok !! lol...

ytd i waited the whole day for her to be online...didnt get to see her and dunno whether she had been online...haha...guess she had too much fun out on halloween ... i was COOPED up at home the whole day ytd...i should have went out and celebrate wif my other frens...but nah i guess im saving some bread for rainy days =DDD...

my o's are coming already...nxt monday 1st paper...im scared out of my wits...i dunno if im prepared yet...guys out there pray for me alright !! haha...thanks loads :)... anw the IRRITATING JOANN irritated me ytd like HELL...she dominated my whole tagbox and even pasted the conversation in her blog!! im gonna flood her tagbox later on...buahhaha...

guess i'll be going now...i will blog more later on when im home...meantime u guys take care alright...:) and do TAG MORE !!!.../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|12:51 PM|

//[unhappy morning...]\\

Zzzzzzzzz..... jus woke up...slept 5 hrs -_-"! damn shagged now....play com awhile then gtg for tuition ... boooooringgg...anyway later after tuition gonna town ... shop for some tees,sick of wearing old tees already...lol.. anw chantelle told me last nite her bday was on 28 dec which is coming(not really) and i dun think i got much time during nov so i better shop for her now...moreover now got more $$ can buy better stuff...lolz!!

anyway last nite why did west brom lose to newcastle...i see oso +_+ man... lol...the stupid newcastle damn lucky lor...west brom keep attackin then their 3 goals all against the run of play then score...michael owen is an idiot...make mi lose money...

good luck to those taking their o lvl chinese today...lucky i didnt retake...i completely hate chinese and i dunno how i see myself ever passing chinese hahas...nxt week is the start of the rest of the papers already...sad man...so fast...i dun think im prepared enuff yet !!

last nite i got to talk to her on the msn for quite awhile...luckily she still talked to me...and i tot she was avoiding me...guess i was dumb...haha...hope i could have more time with her like this..
i was high over the moon last nite...maybe thats the reason i couldnt slp a wink last nite...jus thinking abt her all thru the nite...hahas...anw hope she has a fun time today enjoying her holloweeen...=/

i need to get a grip on myself man...24/7 thinking of a gal can make one go real CRAZYYYYY!!!
phew...but i cant stop myself...not sure why...not sure how...=((...anw im gonna go eat now.../gone~

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|2:12 AM|