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ok so i know wads it like to be rejected already. its ANTAGONIZING!! the feeling of screwed up is left dangling,without wanting to cease. ok so its a very lousy description but im afraid its too fucked up to put into words.

hopes were high for me the previous night when i called her, talked for a brief moment. ok so she even asked about my day its like everything was going ok. i didnt even expect this, frankly. but today when i wished her happy bday and all, i asked her out and she told me she was attached, and i felt like stunned. a moment of denial , followed by grief , followed by anger , and finally acceptance. loving someone doesnt mean possessing her. just hope that all's well for her and wish her happiness thats all i can do for now.

many frens comforted me and said that theres many other girls out there, i know that its true but how can i help it if shes the one that i desire. ok maybe its a little selfish on my part to be unable to let go but its an outright lie to say that i am able to. i guess i will be stuck thinking alot for the next few days. so pls guys, ask me out or something to take my mind off of this matter if not i will jus suffer a major emotional breakdown. kinda exaggerating but its true.

i was lying to myself, i knew that it was impossible, im totally out of her league. ok so i tried to confess my feelings to her. it was alright at least she didnt reject me instantly. but to get my hopes high and then plunge again is really a big blow. a moment of happiness followed by anguish. a really very sad day for me. i dont even know whether i will or can have the confidence or commitment for future relationships. man im letting this shit get the better of me. why am i such a weakling now. perhaps its because of my past deeds. so its getting kinda corny now.

anyway i hope to be able to forget her really really quick. because its jus totally IMPOSSIBLE between us. get that in ur damn thick skull andy. u cant be that dumb to fight a losing battle.

-but baby dun u break my heart slow|3:15 AM|

///yours truly
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known as: Andy[Momo]
me`maself & i . 19 . my family = father , mother , sister . 2 dogs = momo and cookie . daydream . shopping . cs . dota . 10/may/1988 . Single . Waiting for her . =( .

///etched in my head
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- everything means nothing if i aint got you

/soothing to the ear
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- Neyo - Because of you

///down memory lane
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October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
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September 2007

///my fans!
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///friends
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Chantelle
Eldee
Jiaming
Rockson
Joann
Tina
Eln

///mah dawg man
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